Thursday, September 5, 2013

Bittersweet School

Well the moment came and I lived to tell about it!  My Avery and Bubby started their new adventures in life of middle school and pre school.  I was a mess on Tuesday morning.  The nerves turned to nausea, which I didn't enjoy in the morning, because it reminded me of being pregnant(which I am NOT), which turned to just an empty achy feeling in my heart.  I am so excited for both of them, as well. I mean part of my sadness that day was that I wasn't at school myself welcoming a new group.  I love the beginning of the school year!!!  New clothes, new supplies, new start.  But when I am on this side of the first day of school....it's much harder!

 Now I knew Avery would be fine, but the nervousness for her exists because lets face it....middle school is not the best time in your life. I just wanted her to come home and tell me she wanted to go back and that her experience wasn't like Mean Girls or a really bad after school special.  It has been great so far, and actually I feel like I have my old Avery back.  For the past year or so she has been in somewhat of a tomboy/hipster phase, wearing a lot of t-shirts and jeans.  Which I am fine with.  We try to let her find her style.  But she came home Tuesday and we talked about her day for a while, then she went into her room and picked out clothes for the week.  She actually wore a skirt and leggings yesterday!!!!!  This excites me only because...This is more the Avery I know and love:). I am sure we will have many more phases to go, but I am glad to see that she is back to her "roots.".  She even told Tim, "Guess what?  I am wearing a skirt tomorrow and I haven't worn one in 2 years." (in her Avery voice).  I am happy to see her happy and confident and excited about school!!  Also...she tried out for a fast pitch softball team and MADE THE TEAM!!!  We are so excited for her!!!

Now on to my bubby.  When I think about my boy out in the world by himself in his stroller and cute little backpack, I cry.  My heart sinks.  It was hard with Avery too, but she can always come home and tell me about her day and this aspect is what makes it the most difficult with my Patrick.  I don't know if people are getting frustrated with him, ignoring him, leaving him sitting by himself, etc.  those are my fears.  I am pretty confident that none of these things are happening, because I adore his teacher, but at the same time I want to make sure he is getting enough attention and is safe. Which Is any parents fear.  But he can't sit with me when he gets home and tell me about it.  BUT....we try anyways:). He sits with me and rambles on and I am sure he is telling me how much fun he had.  This makes me happy!!! It is important to me that I sit and talk with him after school, like I do with Avery, even though he can't use actual words...yet;)  He has been super happy when he comes home!!!  I told his teacher, that i am not sure what they are doing to him, but to keep it up, because he is so happy!!!  He has a notebook and his teacher fills me in on what he does everyday, what he eats, his PT, his OT, whether they do music, books, his diapers.  In this aspect, I am more fortunate then other parents, because not many parents get that much info.  I feel very lucky that Patrick is where he is.  But a mothers heart cannot be told that it doesn't hurt to see his bus drive away.   So far he is loving it.  He was cracking up laughing yesterday when he was getting lifted into the bus.  The bus driver and aide, fell in love wit h him instantly!  I am soooo excited at the end of the day when his bus pulls up and I get to read about what he did all day!  So far so good!
Patrick's teacher sent me this:). His first day!

Patrick drew the brown line from the bus to school.  Pretty impressive he stayed in the line after one day....haha:)

Jameson is adjusting well....of course he is, because he gets all the attention now.  He is an attention whore:). I actually went grocery shopping yesterday with one kid....weird...and so much easier:). We also went and had lunch with Tim.  We did that a lot this summer too, but again, weird with one kid!

Only other updates on bubby....he went to the kidney specialist last week, he still has some hydronephrosis, which he had while I was pregnant with him.  We just have to monitor blood pressure and UTI's.  Both aren't an issue as of now.  He goes back in 6 months and if nothing is different we will go yearly:).  Now we are waiting for an appt with the sleep clinic and neurology.  The pediatrician wants them to follow him to rule out any issues with that.